Hiraeth

April 9, 2023

I cannot experience the living moments

In the way I once knew them

Your absence has altered my reality

Bending my sweet nostalgia around my memory of you.

Sweet smells: they belong to you

Shadows amongst the greenery: I feel as if I might find you there

Even the flowers in spring are not nearly as sweet without you

Scarcely a fraction of their gentle beauty.

Will I ever experience life as it should be without you?

I can barely remember who I was when I was with you.

You brought tenderness to me:

A child of winter’s want.

I found new warmth in you, my sweet summer child

My tender and loving angel

My only Love.

I miss you so dearly.

I fear your absence will grow longer.

I would rather cease to live than continue

Living this life of muted radiance.